Incredibly random...

I went to my local PF Chang's whose manager told me with no remorse, "We're all maxed out on servers, but you can try calling us back in a few days..." then practically shoved me out the door. Great. I didn't even want to work at Chang's out here, and now I have to beg for the job. We'll see what happens.

I realized last night that everything I've planned out for myself since last June has fallen through the cracks. Seriously, everything! I know all you God fearing friends of mine will remind me of Proverbs 16:9. "In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps." I know... I get it. But allow me just one moment of frustration. K, there. I had my moment.

Chin up, I'm remembering that God is sovereign. And guess what? I'm fresh out of plans! This is good because I'm actually going to try to open myself up to what's coming next, whatever that may be. My pastor stopped by the other day and advised me that I should just keep moving because "God can't steer a parked car." Man, I really hate that metaphor. But I get what he's saying, and I think he's right. So I'll keep moving even though I don't know where I'm going.

Because I've been griping to everyone about how much I miss Utah I figured I'd make a list of things about California that I really, sincerely LOVE: my parents, sunny weather, my extended family (cousins, aunt, cousins' babies, dad's cousins, etc.), the pool and hot tub down the block, H&M, Golden Spoon, In N Out, daddy long legs instead of wolf spiders, my very own bathroom, not paying rent or utilities (thanks Mom), unlimited supply of Diet Coke (thanks Dad), cable (and those House, Psych, Man Vs. Wild and What Not To Wear marathons that come along with it - man I love Stacy and Clinton), Trader Joe's, the beach, Ducks hockey, and last but not least the occasional nostalgia that occurs when I visit APU or drive by my high school; it's strangely comforting.

I'd like to end this post with a shout out to Robyn: I've been sick all this past week, but my Hannah Montana tissues are taking good care of me! Thanks!



  1. two words that don't really go together: "God" and "can't". I love it!

    ...miss you, Cat! We should hang out sometime

  2. Oh Cat. I am so sorry. I totally understand your frustration. I think we should have another phone chat soon. I love you! And I'm glad you are appreciating California while you're living in it.

  3. i totally miss you. i think god is trying to tell you to move to oregon. we could make the big bedroom upstairs not creepy and you could live there, plus it would give me a good reason to go to portland to buy more furniture.

    think about it. god can be sneaky sometimes.


  4. I drive by good ol' Ely Pl. every day on my way to and from work and think of you :) And sometimes I look over just to see if your car is there even though I know it won't be.

    It does seem that it's often sucky when God is teaching me something. So yes, you can be frustrated with it. It's part of the process. I liked your "LOVE" list for CA though :)